Acceptance, Surrender, and Letting the Magic Happen

Seven months ago, I made a decision that changed everything.

I got sober.

After years of numbing, escaping, and feeling like I was drowning in a life that looked fine on the outside but felt anything but… I finally said enough. And not the dramatic kind of “enough.” More like a quiet, Splenic whisper that said:

“It’s time.”

Now, seven months later, I’m not just sober. I’m awake. I’m here. And I’m starting to see—with a clarity I didn’t even know I was missing.

And damn, it’s been a ride.

This week has been chaos in the best kind of way. Ski season is wrapping up. The studio’s transitioning into spring mode. Events, programs, the buzzing energy of change. And through it all, I’ve been dancing between moments of expansion and moments of "WTF is happening?"

A cancelled babysitter. A nap that never happens. A sudden change of plans.

These used to unravel me. And let’s be real—they still do sometimes. But something’s shifted.

Where I used to fight life, now I’m starting to surrender to it.

Not in a “give up” kind of way. In a “let life lead” kind of way.

The kind of surrender that says:

I don’t have to control it all.
I don’t need to have the perfect plan.
I don’t need to force every outcome.

I can take a deep breath and trust that there’s something bigger moving through my life.

I used to hate the saying “everything happens for a reason.” Mostly because I was attached to my reason. My timing. My plan. But when I let go of needing it to make sense right now, that’s when the magic starts to reveal itself.

The future has this wild ability to rewrite the past.

That breakup you thought would destroy you? One day you’ll thank it.
That season you barely survived? One day you’ll realize it built your strength.
That addiction you thought defined you? It’s now the reason you can lead others home.

This week, I’m surrendering.
To the nap that never happens.
To the plan that didn’t go to plan.
To the unfolding that doesn’t need my interference.

Because life knows what it’s doing.

And I’m finally learning to let it.